Bound by Fear

A year far gone, though uncertain exactly when
Jerked from the blackness of slumber by the darkness of the unknown
A sudden nightmare rattling the only safe haven
Spring from covers to cold
Sister, Mother, and ruling guard await aghast
Turning the knob and delving in
To the first frightening step of a trek unspeakable
Cracked defense in hand
Immature fallback in mind
I venture

Taken by men never met
Wanted for the sole purpose of being used
Left in a lonely house of bars
Expected temptation for the strong
Little known of the backward meeting
Of the mind number and the power within
Lifeless companion aside, the smallest footprints creeping toward this restless place
Helpless and weak in every one of the least ways
Calling without words
I cry

Leaving life behind and betrayed
Pulled astray for all the wrong reasons to right
White comfort blanket crawling with mortifying mystics
Unfortunate goodbyes necessary for those held dear and far
Giants of legend both slain and stepped on
Above the mobile blue, below the falling glow
To a place where the weather is repeatedly down
Meeting the maker in the color of calm
Into the depths
I crawl

Happiness burned further away from the foreground
Pit against nothing, my everything
Worst case scenario revealed in unwanted truth
Dignity stripped from forced willingness
Nowhere to turn for the distracted, and deformed gifts for the dedicated
The faithful must remain so in the absence of hope
Only thin pastels support the desolation
Fickle and untrustworthy with no other choice
Not looking back
I join

Thought I knew the horrific possibility of senses
From a fallen expulsion of long ago
Now under the surface of madness, insides pressured to erupt
Wading through remains forgotten and discarded
In the dank underbelly of a falsely fronted future
Ambitions to better it dwindle despite a magnetic upward pull
Will breaking down into the surrounding sludge
The image of beginnings seeping back into mind
It sickens, but…
Must stay strong for her

I really don’t want to
So quiet and vast, it opens up before me with an intimidating blue eye
A cheap catch with a ride attached
Seeming so sure seems so wrong
Set sail with a suicidal chance and a wish upon the reaper
Choices void as the rolling hills before us
Skies blacken and ominous green emerges beneath
A menacing mane contrasts completely
Breath stifles, but…
Must press on for him

Don’t think I’ll survive out here
Trudging over grains of death
 Grinning up and down in bitter sarcasm
Droplets stream, tearing skin with them
Opposite of the norm, weaponry helps not with the natural
Come upon a labyrinth of old and gone
A twisted eye pierces the souls
Pulling ever into the void of doom
Heart pounding, but…
Must prove this to everyone

Abducted from those closest to me
By choice nonexistent but there
Left only to hope, to dream, to pray for the fortune fittest
Utterly useless in reclusive action
Unbeknownst benefactor slipping secrets
As others dive into darkness
To face one from early times
Finally swooping in for a devastating kill
Close call, but…
Mustn’t give up on them

Together into an alien war zone
Below a pale surface
Firm protrusions erupting in balance
Struggle through hordes of beings both wretched and sleek
Faceless in ways emotional
To protect the living treasure
An organic machine awaits eternal malfunction
Delve further and further
Afraid of what could be
We tremble

Together through a village of silence
And into the core of the giver and taker of life
Stumble down holes and through halls omnipotent
To an end within a world of lost time
Flesh begins to burn so near the point of no return
Steely psychotics lack mercy or merit
Eternal geyser sparks fainted flashbacks
Ashes to ashes, but one falls down
Unsure of what has happened
We mourn

Together back to a home nearly but not forgotten
The broken mended and the undying now wounded
Shadows befall the haven of yesterday
And turn sanctuary to disaster
The first true and pure returning
To obtain that needed to visit and vanquish
Nightmare inducing orb angered still
Survive the fate of living ghosts
Diamonds in the rough
We strain

Together now only in mind
Stuck in a lifeless whitewash
Grinding a way through to the digesting floors
And a friendship gone awry
A generic face with consciousness unique nonetheless
Humbles itself to an unfathomable abomination
Sending its withered, forlorn thoughts in despondent pleas
And together, collapse
Watch it dissolve itself before empty optics
We depart